So, my girlfriend is amazing, at a lot of things. She’s smarter than me, and definitely better at loving than I am. Her name is Meg, and this is a guest blog from her. Reading this only shows you a glimpse of her heart. This is exciting and new for me (and her!)
Jesus has been bringing me to my knees a lot lately.
When I am on my knees, giving myself to Him, letting Him have control, my mind slows down. I can focus on Him. Suddenly, my priorities fall back into line and although my life does not fall into place, everything feels a little clearer. My heart feels a little less heavy from the burden of everyday living. My to-do list seems a little less daunting and I begin to forgive myself for the standards that I haven’t lived up to.
Most of my anxiety and my pain, my inability to love others well, comes from the hurtful way I view myself. When I present myself to Jesus with reckless abandon, in a place of the heart that cannot bear anymore of me, He meets me. He takes my heart and wraps it in His loving balm, with His bandages that soothe and protect. He shows me the way He has forgiven me and that allows me to forgive myself. The tension constantly whirring and spinning inside is removed. His peace remains. I can pick myself up, and fall back into His arms. I don’t need to hold it all together; Jesus is holding me and that is enough.