It’s hard to be myself sometimes.
Sometimes, because I read and ingest so much content either on social media or from books and other sources, it’s difficult to know my voice, what I believe, and what I’m thinking.
Do you know the feeling?
I’m talking about whenever I think about a certain topic, or whenever someone asks me a question, and my thought process begins with recalling what I read that someone else thinks or believes about it, instead of what I think, or how I view what Scripture says, or what God has spoken to me personally.
In some cases it’s very good and right to go off of facts or evidences. It’s especially good to couple personal experience with truth from Scripture. We must not simply speak from personal experience. We need both personal experience and unchanging truth from God. What I’m saying is that it’s not necessarily a good thing to always run to “Tim Keller says this about that” or “I read what Nicholas Kristof wrote about that recently” instead of understanding why you believe what you believe and what you actually think. Those are great minds, but they are just people, too.
Sometimes when people ask you something they actually want to know what you think.
My friend Kerry refers to this as “knowing in your knower.” The place deep in your gut where you just know, and from that place you can speak or respond, and move forward with faith and confidence.
I love ingesting information. Two of my top five strengths on the Strengths Finder assessment are Input and Learner. So, naturally I love to gather information and then release that information to others. Great strengths for a communicator, but they can be a little negative when it comes to desiring to create authentic, genuine, and original content, or to just say what I think not what someone else has told me.
Paying attention to what others say and especially to what God says should definitely shape what you think and how you feel about things.
But don’t just be a regurgitator of information. (I’m speaking to myself here, too.)
Being ourselves is the most beautiful thing we can be. God made us to be unique, original art that bring to the world what only we can bring. Know God personally. There is only one you. That makes you special and more than good enough. That makes what God has made you to be an amazing, one-of-a-kind masterpiece.
So learn, read, ingest, listen, pay attention, be aware, search the Scriptures and gather the advice of wise people. Then, be you, and know in your knower what you believe.
It might take some time, but most good things do.
I’m in process, too.