December is here. What do I want to do with it?
Nonstop November is officially over and it was good to me. It was actually much better than I had anticipated.
Now I’m stuck with a desire to continue this commitment, to write every day, yet I have no alliteration to play off of and no theme.
I think this happens at some point after we “step out on the water,” so to speak.
We lose our alliteration.
No, that’s not it.
We lose our focus. We step out, looking at Jesus, listening to Him and believing in what is happening in the midst of the wind and the waves, and we’re doing great. Then, after a while, the early excitement and confidence starts to get drowned out by the world around us, and fear tries to creep in.
Fear is such a creeper.
We begin to let fear get a little grip, and we start to sink, only just a little at first. We’re worried stepping out here may not have been such a good idea. The guys in the boat are all watching us, waiting to see how we’ll do. Some may be secretly hoping we go under while others are sending blessings our way.
I’m feeling all of these things this morning, drinking coffee alone, before everyone else gets up. I don’t want to give in and let fear and uncertainty win, because that’s stupid and doesn’t sound like a good story.
I’ll keep looking at Jesus in the midst of the wind and the waves, and He will still be there, ready to pull me back on top of the water with Him. Although it’s hard, it’s worth it.
Maybe on top of the water I’ll write. Maybe I’ll teach. Maybe I’ll work a 9-5. Maybe I’ll get married and have a family. Maybe you will do something amazing.
No matter what, when we walk out on that water, if we look at Jesus and know who He is, we don’t have to worry about going under.