Whenever I begin to doubt God’s plan for my life or His care for me, I’m listening to my fears more than what’s true.
I know I can do so many things on my own. I know that I have skills and gifts and talents that can produce things.
But I am continually removed from my self-consciousness and redirected toward Jesus. Time and time again I am reminded that apart from Him I can do nothing. Nothing of value or lasting impact comes from me doing things alone, apart from God.
I struggle with this more often than I’d prefer to acknowledge, and I often get irritated at my lack of production. What’s more, when I am doing things out of my own strength or for the wrong intentions, I get stressed and frustrated with my lack of enjoyment of those things.
Then the redirection comes.
God isn’t frustrated with this, or taken aback in any way. He graciously corrects me and reminds me that His love isn’t dependent on my ability to depend on Him. He reminds me again and again that He is the source of life, and coming to Him will give me rest and as a result living water will flow from deep within me.
That means freedom from condemnation, freedom from any reason to be afraid, and freedom to be myself knowing that Jesus loves me and is working all things together for my good.
Lies and fears are not worth listening to.